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Sunday, April 20, 2008 { 4/20/2008 11:44:00 AM }

20th APRIL 2008 - SUNDAY
woke up early, went over to ahma house, ate breakfast, watched dvd, slacked then left home for tuition. stupid maple. -.- they changed the timing to later cause something cropped up with everybody. maple as a pig, overslept. hah the rest shant say. lol maths tuition was boring. XP lol hehe after tuition, took bused back to tpy interchange. was on the phone with jane. talked to her for about twenty mintues and more.

then contacted maple, trained down to dhoby ghuat, met maple, jaspas and bowen at ps, in the theatre. we watched the forbidden kingdom. when i arrived then the movie started lehh. haha as if waiting for me. wahahaha! lol kidding. hehe i sat inside. seating arrangement was maple, jaspas, nic, bowen. haha jaspas know what happened. XP when the movie start, he lifted is two arm rest then put his arms round maple and my shoulder. wahhh. i hurry pull bowen and put the arm rest which is btw jaspas and me down. lol haha XP retarded.

after the movie, we went out of ps, walked around then went to the seven eleven. bought big gulp and went out to sit down, added whiskey inside then started to drink. haha yummy. x) i drank the most. lol hehe nobody can stop me now. blehhh. silly bowen thought i was still with jon. haha that was ancient. bowen is so blur. haha cute. lol! met maple's papa. maple went red first, then me then jaspas. but the two guys didnt drink much. -.- retarded. haha went into ps, to the basement. jaspas bought his chicken then met leon.

maple, her papa and i went to parklane to send her guitar for repair. the uncle recognised me and gave her discount. wahahahaha! XD my childhood time, always go down to his shop to buy stationaries. haha then the three of us walked back to dhoby ghuat, met the three of them in the train. we all stayed in the train from 6pm to 9pm. lol cause the three of them were filming something while the three of us accompany them. x) haha laughed, had fun.

finally they were done. actually decided to have dinner tgt but bowen wanted to go home so all of us went home. i was having gastric since we met jaspas they all in the train but didnt care. when i went home by bus64, the pain was even worst but i hold on until i reached home. ate a small packet of noodle but it still hurts badly. ahyi cooked instant noodles for me, couldnt move as the pain was still there. ate panadol. hmmph.

went to my room and lie on the bed, roll myself. the pain was really hurting until i cried. i was thinking of soo many things and people. finally the pain relax after an hour on the bed. really exhausted. sigh. realised i didnt eat the whole day, except for breakfast. i didnt have the mood to eat anyway. XP seriously. even though i felt hungry but my mouth had no energy/mood to eat. so yeah. who cares anyway. lol if suckling pig gets to know i skip all my meals, he'll definitely scold me. but too bad, we're over. lol XP thks maple and jaspas for caring and for being there for me when ya know. hehe jaspas, dont worry, we were playing the whole day. no worries. x) haha ahsiao.

19th APRIL 2008 - SATURDAY
i felt somethings wrong today. as i look at the necklace. and dont know why i notice the jacket today. anyway didnt care, bused down to tpy to meet james for accounts tuition. hes late! one hour late. -.- finally he came, went to interchange mac to study. van, ruiliang and steph met us later. after tuition, trained to expo. haha james went for choir while steph, van, ruiliang and me went foyer3 to eat. met rita and grace. x) exchange my heels with grace sandals. haha.

i followed and accompany them to queue for a while. MY PHONE TOTALLY SPOIL! firstly, the screen totally flip. its as if im reading mirror image. lol then i tried to off and on. couldnt on. -.- took at least an hour to on. finally on it. that was when im having accounts tuition. the whole screen were moving. xian. my phone trying to hint me something or trying to prevent me from reading a message that it know it was coming thats why the screen was chaos. lol

anyway i received a message. the screen was moving. i read the first line, my hand started shivering, i didnt feel good. i was so pissed off using my phone to read so i tried to forward it to ruiliang's phone. finally i got it. walked away, teared, hands still shivering. quickly call jane and cry. -.- sigh. after that, went for ministry. cleaned the toys then prayed tgt then kids started to come in. haha oh-so-cute. but i didnt have the mood. XP

shonna never come. x( hmmph. anyway. after ministry, met john at foyer3 then walked tgt to food court. met the rest of the cgm. hehe i didnt eat. no appetite. rawh. after fellowship, trained home at aljunied. stayed home, packed some things then watched ghost rider with fatty. suddenly maple call if i have the accounts worksheet. and yeap, i have it. she was near my house so she came over with sam as her driver. haha lol

met her, we went riding round. needed a favour from them so they sent me over to ken's house so that i can return his comic books. if not i'll always forget to. and somemore i wont be meeting him and them anymore so better return. hmmm im told that suckling pig is not inside his house. so sam drove me home. thanks maple and sam! XD went home, was messaging people. no mood to sleep also but forced myself to cause i've to wake up early for tuition. and earlier to meet jaspas, bowen and maple to help them film something. so... tata.
what a freaky day for me. XP stupid day. why is the number 9 always involve..... =.=

18th APRIL 2008 - FRIDAY
after school, sent jane and stuart off as they went to celebrate their first year anniversary! congratulations you too. stay strong. x) i'll be there for you two always! love you two. huggies waggies. hmmm after that then i took bus home. slacked, slept, ate, watch tv then left home for cgm. i was early. yeah! haha after cgm went home. nothing much. one day wasted. hmmph.

im still wondering. all the promises you've made. non of them are true. is it true? i've been thinking loads. i also dont know what to reply your message. bout you dont have the time for me, i didnt even complain, i dont understand why you would be affected. i understand why you dont have the time for me. isnt that what all army guys would want their gf to understand why. but this is different, its the other way round. are you giving an excuse?!?!?! ask me not to call you. you think i want. make myself feel even worst, even down. no way. i've my life. i knew at the beginning of the relationship this would happen. i knew it all along that this would happen. but i kept denying myself, thinking that this relationship will work out. sigh. im too smart. lol so now im suppose to forget about it and go on? haha i'll try. and you choose a really good timing man. stupid ass. this week is my start of exams week. argh. damn it. i was sooo looking forward to meet you last week cause i didnt meet you for the last two weeks already. then this is how you repay. like what my friends keep telling me im so silly. love you soo much but this is what i get. sigh. are they speaking the truth. man.... arghhh. hmmph. anyway thanks for freeing me. XP oh. for no reason. i have the feeling that the relationship doesnt just stop here but i dont wna put myself thinking of it, putting my expectations so high, in the end, im just lying to myself. lol retarded me. so i guess i'll move on. XP you too. take care. till then! hmmph.